Fantasy Flight

A few days ago, I put in a bunch of applications to a game company in Minnesota, Fantasy Flight Games. I'm really hoping it works out - I'm well-qualified for all four positions I applied to, and I think I showed real enthusiasm for games. It's rather refreshing, really. I've been spending all this time trying to fit into a hole I was never really made for. Marketing, economics, all that jazz, it's background noise - it's not what I want to do.
I suppose it sounds all emo, but sometimes I look in the mirror and I don't know who I am. I got my hair cut short to find a job. I read business books and magazines, I apply to jobs at companies I don't like or respect. All I really want to do is sit down and have fun, gather around a table with some friends and play a good game.
FFG has the right culture for me, and I'd love to work there. The big hurdle (besides getting hired) is that we'd need to move to Minnesota. That's fine by me. I have short roots - I moved to California with hardly a look back, went to Japan, moved to San Francisco - I keep the connections I cherish, but I have no regrets when I say goodbye. It'll be a challenge to move across the country, but no more of a challenge than trying to pay rent on a place in San Francisco. If this works out, I'm thinking I'll move out there for a few years. See what I can do, what kind of name I can make for myself. If that goes well, maybe move over to WotC, Sega, something closer to San Francisco.
I wish I felt worse about it, I really do - all my friends up here deserve that. But if I can land what is, essentially, my dream job, I think the good will outweigh the bad.